in this dark so dense, we talk so soft.

mark came over tonight and fell asleep on my bed while i worked on my futon. my sheets smell like him. it makes me all the more excited to marry him. i think that excitement increases every second. it makes me dream of being married to him and the things i want us to accomplish together.

things i can't wait to do and things i will do when i'm mrs. mark mcminn:

1. have a candlelight picnic in our living room with hardwood floors.
2. fall asleep wearing his t-shirt.
3. lay in bed late at night and talk. about things that matter.
4. have dinner waiting for him when he walks in from work.
5. wake up in the morning and see him laying beside me with sunlight streaming across his face.
6. in his words - lay my head in his lap, listen to jazz music and watch the sparks rise from the fire in our fireplace.
7. spend Christmas in New York.
8. raise our children to be God-fearing children.
9. lay in bed and eat ice cream. 100 calorie ice cream bars.
10. make cookies for Christmas time.
11. take as many pictures of mark and our children as possible.
12. have one dog at a time.
13. look up from the dinner table and catch mark looking at me.
14. wake our kids up in the middle of the night, bundle them up, hand them a mug of hot chocolate and go outside and watch the stars.
15. take weekend trips away.
16. hear mark introduce me as his wife.
17. feel his feet against mine in the middle of the night.
18. hear his laugh whenever i want.
19. be with him and his family on holidays.
20. travel to northern california with him
21. paint a room in the middle of the night.
22. have a marriage that brings glory to God.
23. text each other during the day to see when we're coming home for dinner
24. see his laundry mixed in with mine.
25. go out on dates :)
26. move from our first house into our second
27. when we actually decide to have kids, announce to everyone that we're having a baby.
28. get tattoos together.
29. be out running errands together and feel him put his hand in mine.
30. change my relationship status to "married" and change my name to Lauren Kirby McMinn
31. go on trips for our anniversary
32. buy gifts for each other.
33. see the Christmas tree being lit at Rockefeller Center
34. go to concerts together
35. lay in bed and read
36. watch him preach every Sunday morning
37. nap together every Friday afternoon
38. cook him breakfast. lunch. and dinner.
39. lay in the floor of our living room or sit in the floor of his office and talk.
40. feel his heart beat when he's holding me close.
41. get really, really tickled together.
42. pick up the phone whenever his mom calls
43. have a little boy who looks and acts just like him
44. see his toothbrush beside mine. (is that weird?)
45. call things "ours"
46. go shopping together.
47. steal his clothes.
48. have dinner dates with wil ray and whitney.
49. hear him moving around the house late at night or early in the morning.
50. wake up in the morning and catch him watching me sleep.
51. hiding the remote from him so he can't watch espn 24/7
52. move into our first house together.
53. decorate our christmas tree together
54. play hooky.
55. get in arguments. me cry. and then us apologize to each other and then laugh at how dumb we are.
56. organize our house.
57. go to downtown atlanta for dinner.
58. decorate the house for birthdays.
59. lay in bed with the windows open listening to the rain.
60. have jazz music playing while we cook together.
61. beg him for more dogs but laugh when he says no every time.
62. come home from a bad day and find he filled a bubble bath for me.
63. fall asleep while he works and feel him crawl into bed with me.
64. walk into the living room and find him asleep on the couch with one of our kids.
65. feel him cover me up with a blanket when i'm cold.
66. pretend like we're still in college and go away on a "spring break"
67. take our kids to see the Nutcracker every Christmas
68. work in the yard.
69. finally getting a mac for my birthday or Christmas
70. hearing him talk to our children about God and His love for us
71. go to asheville for the day.
72. take our kids shopping for back to school supplies.
73. naming our son Phillip
74. calling him throughout the day to tell him what hilarious things our kids have done.
75. find notes he's left for me all over the house.
76. take a spur of the moment road trip.
77. visit colleges with our kids.
78. hearing him read to our children.
79. surprising him with tickets to a UGA football game or Braves game
80. fall more and more in love with him every day
81. holding hands.
82. him letting me stick my toes under his feet when im cold.
83. playing out in the snow.
84. him coming home for lunch when our children are little.
85. still learning and studying him after years of being married.
86. getting so mad at him that i can't see straight.
87. talking to his mom for hours.
88. leaving him notes in his car and briefcase.
89. hearing him say my name.
90. still being in love after years of being married.
91. stealing his hoodies when i'm cold.
92. having our house smell like him
93. lighting candles at night.
94. seeing a wedding band on my left hand.
95. complaining to him about a bad day and then him making me laugh
96. fighting over the middle of the bed and the covers during the night.
97. seeing his bed-head hair whenever he wakes up from a nap.
98. teaching our puppy new tricks.
99. still wondering after 50 years of being married why God blessed me with such an incredible husband.
100. being married to mark mcminn.